It is great to be here today, sharing with you all yet another interesting read on my blog. I hope you all are faring well.
This week, I’ll be sharing with you all a prayer. Once in a while, instead of a regular blog I do share prayers written in everyday words, expressing different sentiments. I hope this prayers touches someone’s heart and helps them make the right choices.
Dear Lord, are you there?
It is unlike me to speak with you in prayer by asking questions Lord, however today I come before you differently. As the omniscient one, you most definitely already know what I am about to say, nonetheless I’ll say it anyways. Let me start by saying Thank you! Something I guess I should say more often. Thank you for Life, good health, a roof over my head, food on my table, good education, exposure, resources and finance. I may take these things for granted, but I do know that they do not come by easy. I also want to thank you for those things you do, those things you have done, those things you are doing and those you are yet to do, for in good faith I receive all these blessings and I am forever indebted.
Every now and then Lord, I may whine and complain about how my life is not going the exact way I’ll like it to. Yes, sometimes I may even ask for more than I already have. Can you blame me? I am just another living entity feeling I am entitled to somethings. Please take no offense. If there is anything I have noticed over the years in my life Lord, it is that my journey is not one smooth ride but more of zig-zags filled with a lot of adventure, lessons and of course some fair share of pain. I guess it is the pain that makes me run in circles. I know kings are made in jungles and in times of war than in palaces and times of peace, however sometimes this warrior needs a break from the little battles so he can focus on the bigger war ahead.
Dear Lord, are you there?
Hallowed be they name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done… Lord I cringe at this part. I ask myself, am I really ready to have your will done? Most of these things are easier said than done, as I begin to see that I prefer the comfort of predictability than the discomfort of uncertainty. Saying that your will be done, is accepting anything and everything you throw at me, it means saying that you will remain my worshipful Lord even if you break my heart in pieces by not being present before me, or by handling me roughly in your embrace. I don’t know if I am ready for this. I’ll still prefer to have you before me whenever I want, and always gentle in your embrace. I don’t know if this is possible either.
With the material body comes pain, desires, and a lot of issues, managing them is the highlight of our existence and those who have this figured out are revered as teachers and masters in life. I have my daily dose of these lessons to learn, combined with my constant cry for grace and Love. I don’t know if you are sending it across or I am just not receiving it. Either way, I don’t seem to get it. It is like I always fall short of your mercy. The wounds from my constant fight with material nature make it hard for me to concentrate. They say time is supposed to heal you, but I don’t think I have done much healing Lord. The only hope I have is that I know somewhere deep down inside that you won’t let me down.
Dear Lord, are you there?
Sometimes I want to have a peek into the future to see what I have laying ahead and how much more hurdles I have to surmount, sometimes I wish it was a lot more easier than this, sometimes I wish you didn’t pick me for the tough task, sometimes I wish I was just a regular guy, going about his normal life, but I guess there isn’t much glory in that. I do not want the glory Lord, and sometimes just like Jesus prayed on Mount Sinai, I also say “Lord if it is thy will, please may this cup pass over me”. The body I have can only take as much as my mind and heart can handle, but then I hear you never give more than we can handle. At this I just cringe, as It seems you trust me a lot to give me this much to deal with. I hope I don’t let you down and all those who count on me.
To be honest, there are times Lord when I just feel “that’s it, I’m done. I am not doing this anymore and I know you must have seen this a million times, but then somehow I just hold on a little longer. I am not saying it should be all easy and flowery, neither am I asking for too much. All I am saying is please show me where we are going with all of this. I need to know if we are on track or off. Just like you were the charioteer of Arjun, please take my chariot to the middle of the battle field of my life so I can see who/what I have to fight. I trust you will take me to that spot and show me everything clearly. I must warn you beforehand Lord, that just like Arjun in the Bhagavad-Gita, I am definitely going to have my own melt down and resist to fight. I know you won’t have to recite the Gita again to me, however please show me alternative strategies to winning this battle.
Thank you for listening to me Lord, I know you can understand the words I don’t say.
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